You have been, if not today, but at certain point of time pushed by your thoughts to the brink of isolation despite the companionship you have. If not so, you might have had an experience of being cornered by the negative energy, to the extent, that you feel drained, and overstrained. This makes you feel exasperated. Right?
Or,
you are in awe of being unruly too far from the goals of life, when you had to
be exceedingly there. You’re troubled, perhaps, by the unholy conversations of
the people— about your life. Education. Job. The family. Getting aged. Blah,
blah… You’re agitated. And, ought not to discuss anything. You feel— like— you
have failed. Unlike others, you’re not able to keep pace. They have gone miles,
but you’re stuck, in terms of growth. Career. Decision making.
Responsibilities. And, a lot more…
Yes.
I know. You’re not being ungrateful. You believe nature has something good for
you. You embrace that God will give bread, when he has given teeth. You believe
upon his supremacy. Yet. You feel, why everything isn’t moving fast your way?
Why you’re troubled, and others are enjoying? Why you haven’t gone to the
places you have been longing for, and others have already been repeating
adventures…
You
are, at times, ‘feeling that life isn’t in your control. You have been set to a
routine, which, in actuality, was never, yours. You were willing to be destined
somewhere else, yet you’re somewhere— you ought not to be’.
Your
responsibilities are growing. You’re busy with family care. You have either
stopped living for yourself. Or, just live— to whatever direction spontaneity
pushes you.
People
aren’t listening to the issues you face. Every moment you feel giving up, or
you have already surrendered. You feel, your decisions are being influenced.
Emotionally weak. And, in the middle of this all, you try to bring a balance in
the daily affairs. Either by trying not to fail in doing the assignments, or
finding the justifications to exhibit the positive intuitions.
Every
time you’re reminded of some gratitude. You feel annoyed. Not because, you
aren’t blessed. But the way it is reminded. Perhaps, you want more than you
have? Or, desire to have something else—including the things you have? You want
to stay away from all kinds of troubles. Or, you don’t want others to reach to you,
in any negative way?
You’re
perplexed by the blues of life. The behaviour of people. You’re fair to the
people, and expect them to be fair too? Yet. They are unfair to you. You feel
people respond to you through the avatars they need to fulfil? You don’t want
to discuss life—yours or otherwise. Yet, you end up, sometimes, gossiping what resultantly
could be useless. You keep thinking moments, if not hours, about the lows of
your life.
You’re
eagerly waiting for the sun to shine your way. But, wait. You don’t even feel
the change in weather(s)? Of what value could sunshine be…? Life is too slow,
or too busy for you? You wanted to enjoy weather. But, how could you? There is
nowhere to go. It is all in all. Issues, noise, solutions, and distractions in iteration…
You
feel, why aren’t your efforts being noticed? You either cut out the
discussions, or want others to agree with you? No? Alright, I may be wrong
here. But, hey, you are compelled to be someone—you don’t even want to be?
You
breathe. As if your existence has no value. Or, you are being asked to do so. Your
friends betrayed you. May be just a friend. People are becoming selfish than
promoting your interests. And, that really, nauseates you. Right?
You feel, your prayers aren’t being answered. You have asked for a lot of things/blessings, but it isn’t yet, granted by Allah. You’re now doubting a lot of things— including the way you pray. Or, you feel confident that you know the right way? Let it be. Somewhere, you have the feeling.
You want to yell at
someone. And, you do. But then you feel apologetic. Because, you’re afraid. In
one or other way. You don’t want to be cursed? Oh! I got it. You’re worried by
the bad omens too. However, every time, you whisper to your soul— ‘I trust
Allah, he has the better plans’.
Alright. I think, I’m going too far. I should conclude it. Or, you may question what this writer is trying to say. Nonetheless. I have, in answer, to the above precepts nothing to say. Because, nothing needs to be said. If you’re relating yourself to any part of this note. Then congrats. You’re as normal as anyone should be. Try to remind yourself of the blessings, you have been bestowed with. If you aren't able to. then, Allah has a message for you— “No soul is burdened beyond what it couldn’t bear”.
